I trust my life in the hands of my life

It's the end of 2010! What a weird year it has been.

By now I should be living on my own, have a job and a profession and a driver's license. By now I should be enjoying my free time with hard core fun (meaning 'get drunk everytime you can' or at least that's what it looks like for those who really are going on with their life, in a way).

But the truth is I'm just a student - yet again. The truth is that I'm just as messed up, lost and got no clue where to go but at least life always shows me a direction. Just need to take advantage of all the paths given.

Btw, it wasn't Halloween.

Then again I've been thinking that I'm not the kind that gets best memories out of travelling, being drunk all night or.. I don't know. Shopping? Ha. I like being with people, as long as I don't have to interact with them (Okay, that's not 100% true, don't worry). Yeeep.... It's just that I love to observe people. Usually I don't get to know persons very well. I know it by now 'cause for example I don't know much about my class mates from Lohja. Yes, I know, it doesn't sound logic to observe and not to know but there's this thing about humans called a shield. And behind it is the true part. By observing you can't get to it 'cause people usually aren't open like that.

Oh how much I miss them! My old class mates. They were an awesome bunch of people. We had so much fun and even when we didn't at least we were in that shit together. I haven't seen them in such a long time. I believe in 2010 I saw none of them? No wait, I did see one few times. But one out of so many people... I'm hoping we are going to have a get together this spring or summer. Some of them have had a child, some are studying and some are working. That's nice! I'm glad they've found jobs. But anyway, it might be hard to find a perfect time and place to see them. If you're wondering why I brought this up now when I'm thinking about the whole year, it's because one of my old class mates called me in Christmas. It was like the best Christmas present ever!  

 Actually you can never say a person is 'just' a student. Sorry for the expression And besides I do live on my own so at least something has gone right this year. Then again it hasn't got big affect on me 'cause been there, done that. Just a little bit different forms. You know I am from Vantaa. When I turned 16, I moved to Hamina to study for one year. After that I was in Lohja for little bit over 3 years. And those years I lived in dorms. While I was studying in Lohja, I went for this job rehearsal in Kokkola. Stayed there for 5 weeks. Usually the biggest question for me is "where next?" and I don't think about the how as much as the where. Honestly, it's weird sometimes to see people - young people - to actually THINK over and over again if they can move to some other city etc. But then again I'm a little bit rootless and I don't get home sick that much so I can just go. It's a good thing and bad thing. Maybe I will some day settle down but honestly I don't give a fuck about it today!

So I dropped off from school on February (if I remember correctly). Not my thing that youth worker stuff and besides there were a lot of stupid things involved etc. What next? Well, I remembered I have this friend called Heikki who was studying in this weird school which sounded like an interesting place so let's see if I'm gonna find myself from there later on (and here I am!)

One of the best things was being a volunteer in Kivenlahtirock. That was awesome! I made at least two new awesome friends there!

During this year I've been living with other peoples money (sossupummi), been unemployed, had a lot of new friends, met a lot of new people, had a lot of new experiences, been a rather good student if you compare to my past, experienced few rather awesome gigs, found awesome new things and bands to enjoy...

Days so hot a nuclear melt down would feel like a Siberian blizzard

WHAT'S UP NEXT YEAR?

Well, I dont know. I want a sofa. I am going to be a volunteer for Kivenlahtirock again (if they want me... haha) and I'm thinkin about signing up as a volunteer for Maailma Kylässä-festival also. Because I'm gonna go there anyway, so why not try a little bit different view... Might be that I'll try to get to be a volunteer also in Myötätuulirock... Don't know yet. 

I'm starting few new hobbies, let's see how it will go. There's gonna be a lot of new experiences with school, of course. I'm gonna turn 22. Okay, nothing special there...

I am making promises but just a few:

* I promise to try not to be so afraid of almost everything 
* I promise to try to seriously always go with my diet so people don't have to listen me complain how it huuuuuuurts...
* I promise to go and search for new interesting things and situations
* I promise to keep dust safe in my home <3
* I promise to try to be a little bit less explosive...
* I promise to go where life throws me 'cause 

I trust my life in the hands of my life 

(it knows best what to do with it) 

Me and my dear, DEAR friend <3

I'm a cow, I MOO and stuff

 Oh Christmas! Long gone by now and still my tummy is full of food! Or at least it feels like it 'cause I'm sick and not that hungry.

See our lovely Christmas tree! Isn't it nice... Errr. Well I had few presents under it so I'm not complaining. I got coffee from my friend! That's like the best thing you can give me.

Also I got this AWESOME Pikachu from the hippies! COOLEST THING EVER! Besides, the Pikachu has a story. As you can see, there's two pictures. The one on the left is from this year and the one on the right is few years back from Kuopio. Nice!

And then I got this cow which is actually a milk can or what ever. You put milk in it and put it on coffee table and then your guests can pour milk to their coffee and it comes from the cow's mouth! Got it? How cool is that! Now I need a table to have honourable coffee guests to test my cow. Volunteers? (For the guest-part, not the table-part...)

Watch out! It's a snowy mess

Everyone needs a mirror picture... right? :D

I'm bored, I'm bored... what should I do...

I'm a dog and I look like a snowball...

Our hectare full of snow

No snow here! Look elsewhere.

Winter. Some might say.

Hopefully there's no bikermice from Mars here...

Trying to find Christmas spirit, I guess...

Welcome to Helsinki - never ending hurry

SNAP

On Thursday I was overnight at my friends house. They have this really cool kitten who decided to use my face as a scrathing tree. How nice! Lovely! Awesome!

On Friday I left quite early to Joensuu so I could catch the train which leaves at 12. Early for me, anyway. Usually I buy the ticket in advance but hey, of course the train is full when I decide not to do so. No worries though, I called my friend who was, luckily, at home and I spent three hours at his place drinking coffee and eating chocolate.

When I got to the train, found my place and was annoyed by the fact that it was this stupid 'cabin'like place where the seat was, I thought that it couldn't get much worse. The day I mean. But of course you never should think like that. It didn't take too long before there was two awful small children in the same area as I was. And if you didn't know - I dont like children, especially under schoolaged. Obviously I didnt die during the train trip so happy ending there. (And by the way, I dont like cats either. Not that much. Little bit but not much)

Then I spent three nights at my friends house even though she wasn't at home much.

Mörkö Hietala <3

On Saturday I went to rise my Christmas spirit with my other friend. It was time for Raskasta Joulua-concert! A W E S O M E ! We were just drooling all over 'cause you know - nothing says Christmas more than men with leather pants singing Ave Maria! And hey, Ari Koivunen came to the stage after Jarkko Ahola! It didnt look as awful as last year! ...but I was still so ashamed every time he opened his mouth. To sing or to speak. He did sing some duettos with Marco Hietala and I must say that I didnt like them, surprise surprise. Next time I hope we can get the tickets to the adult version with no Ari Koivunen. Oh yeah, he looked like an alien when he had his hat on. HA HA HA! But after all the drooling, screaming, singing etc we had Christmas spirit burnt in our hearts with my friend Jenna. AH! The best thing in Finland! Oh, and Ahola was looking quite good with a beard(likethingey).

At my friend's house I just slept. A lot! I wasnt tired, at least I dont think so, but it's vacation so nothing better to do, aye? Then I drank some hot chocolate with alcohol, minty! (That can't be a word...) And as you probably did see, I found the anykey! How happy am I!

My friend's funny dog

By now I have eaten A LOT, been shopping some FOOD for me ('cause I dont eat that or that or this or that because of my health and my mom is the worst to make food which I can eat or even buy it so need to handle it myself even though it's easy as hell).  Now I have a lot of mineral water (not that much, just six bottles or so), papaya bites, peach bites and ananas. Also nut bars (or something? I dont know how to translate it) and cottage cheese. AND of course this juice  I'm addicted to! I know you couldnt care less but I can also tell you that soon I'm going to make dinner! Meat, cauliflower and broccoli. NAM!

Dont ask, I dont know

I got nothing interesting to tell you. You can feel the whole enviroment being filled with HURRY in here (well I mean in Helsinki. Not here where I am, in the middle of a forrest. You'll see when I get enough energy to take some pics of our yard. Even though this is in Vantaa, still it's a little bit middle of nowhere). And stressed out people worrying about the snow and Christmas. I try not to get involved with hurrying, it's basically stupid. If your life is not the one you might loose then why hurry? And this comes from a person who cant sit still but then again that has got nothing to do with hurrying. I usually dont even stress even though some might think that me yelling and screaming is me being stressed but thats not. Thats just me being annoyed. When I'm stressed, I'm probably not doing very well with my health. So if I am stressed then I'm just at home 'cause I cant get out of the house. Hah. Funny.

Must say - there's nothing saying family Christmas as much as my mom coming from Alko with a booze bottle in her hands. Ah, Christmas... There's going to be a weird Christmas this year. My oldest brother is going to be here and my oldest sister also. That's something you don't see often and probably don't even want to. Did I allready told you how much I hate anything that has something to do with 'family'? Did I already tell you that I hate his motherfucking house? The one thing I have always wanted to do, is to get the fuck away from here. And here I am, once again, chained to spent the Christmas. Yippee?

There was some talk going on about Radio Kupari and Teemu is trying to get the thing rolling, I guess. At least there has been some messages from him concerning that subject. But my messages back has been not useful 'cause I got no idea if I will even survive New Year etc. Heh. Anyway, I think I'm going to be doing something if I can found something useful to do. We'll see.

And sorry for putting shitty pics in here but my posts happen to be little long time to time that I thought shitty pics is better than no pics. Dont know.

Tervetuloa Helsinkiin - Tervetuloa kiireeseen

I found the anykey!

 I found the anykey from my friend's remote! And then I laughed for like fifteen minutes 'cause she didn't know what it is. Yeeeep, I have brilliant friends! ;)

(More from my adventurous vacation, coming soon!)

Where, who, what!?

 NOT BAD! Only three of the persons we were supposed to film today didn't show up. Well one was sick, other didn't want to be filmed in the end and the third one just wasn't where he was supposed to be.

But still we did get enough material which we can use. Well, I'm not the camera man or the director so I don't know but that's what I heard them say so... Besides we have something like 90 minutes of material. It probably contains something we can use. If it doesn't then I'm just gonna hate Sami and Heikki for a while.

It has been rather fun to be doing this in many different locations. In total everything has run quite smoothly. Just some basic problems but nothing special from my point of view. The biggest thing for me was the phone calls and would've been all the social stuff with the persons we are interviewing etc but luckily I was the sound guy so my part was mostly make the persons more uncomfortamble (not really. Can't you hear my sarcastic voice?) But yeah, it's just weird to think how you need to take into consideration the persons and... I don't know. Communicate! I hate communicating. It's so hard. So many people and so many locations and... The way you see in their eyes that they are a) nervous b) curious c) looking at us with this 'WTF'-expression. 

More coffee next time to keep me happy! That would be nice! But yeah, now I can enjoy my vacation with the health which can't keep up with me.

Snow Hattifattener I made in 2005 :)

Yesterday I came home and I was just frozen. The same way you feel when you have a high fever. I usually don't have a fever and if I do, these days I'm almost everytime in a hospital 'cause it rises so high and is usually a mark of something bigger going on. I thought that the basic body temperature of a person can't change but at least with me it has. When I was younger I had the basic 36.5-37 or something like that. These days it's a miracle if the thermometer shows over 36! Usually I'm just hanging aroung 35.5-36.  But yesterday I was frozen and my body temperature was 34.2. No wonder I felt a little bit cold, aye? It did rise almost to 35 during the evening and a little bit more during the night so I'm again 'fine'. (The whole thing is - obviously, I'm not sure but somebody said something like it - based on this disease I have and the body's way to fight some infections with low temperature. Funny!)

If you are wondering why the heck am I telling this, the reason comes here: I just wanna say to all of those who think you must go to school if you don't have a fever - SHUT THE FUCK UP! :)

Because I don't want to end this post in a rude way, I need to ask that have you ever explored Moomin words in English? If you ever get bored, you should. It's fun. And might be helpful someday. Or then not but it's still fun!

Interviews and shame

I'm a satanic driver!

I hate this blog. Truly, madly, deeply! But I don't have the interest to learn how to use it well so you, my dear reader, just need to suffer. Sorry!

I did notice that I should probably change the "schoolstuff" part to "Outokumpu stuff" 'cause it's a better description. Maybe I will change it, soon. Today if I remember still after I've written this post...

First of all - all the guys in our group (Toni, Heikki and Sami) are just chauvinist pigs. They made me some kind of secretary - not because they trust me or anything. Only because I'm the one wearing the skirt! Seriously! DUDES! And once again I noticed that I should just trust myself and do stuff which I think needs to be done. There is just one thing I hate (there are a lot of things I hate but one I hate very much!) and that's making phone calls. I just hate it. One summer I was working as a telemarketer mostly 'cause I wanted to get rid off my phone call fear. It did actually work (for a while) and I got nice summer money from it! ...and it was even almost fun! Weird. Probably the shittiest job there is and I think it's fun? Well... yeah. I got more money from there than when I was working in Linnanmäki. But yeah back to the phone calls. I needed to make all of them today. I called the teacher who we were supposed to interview and then she said that 'cause we didn't tell her when we are coming etc (we thought it was allready planned?) she actually wasn't prepared. And actually didn't even have the time. Then I was like YIPPEEE! THIS IS FUN! WHAT SHALL WE DO... But then suddenly she did have time and everything went great! 

I also needed to make the phone calls for the teachers tomorrow. So it was like six calls to teachers who actually sounded like they couldn't care less if we were coming tomorrow or not. I hate making phone calls like that.

"Take a picture of meeeeeeee!"

What have I learnt? I can tell you that I'm not a fan of trying to hide the wireless microphones.... And as sure as hell in next project I'm not gonna be the sound guy, just 'cause I've done it twice now and it would be fun to try other stuff too. Even though me with camera is like... well... I don't know but the only thing I know (or remember) is (maybe) how to put the camera on... I think... So it would be fun to learn a little bit more!

Rest of the day we did interviews at our school with two persons who had gone through the Ammattistartti-thingy and we got great material from them. Happyhappyjoyjoy!

Now it's only thursday left and if everything goes well, I'm going to Vantaa (actually Helsinki...) on Friday! I'm gonna see my friend Reija and then I will have black hair again!

Oh, I shall be me again!

We are all fucked up

I realised I've learnt something! About me! Well I have learnt a lot through this year (a hell of a lot past three-four years even though my mom said it was a total waste of time to be in a school for almost four years and not get a degree) and now I've started learning something totally new in my life! Cool! But that's got nothing to do with what I was talking about now. Or does it... No I dont think so 'cause the bigger learning progress has got something to do with people and all kind of stuff concerning the stuff you need to handle in every day life. And I basically lack almost all of those kind of talents. Errr...

What I realised is that I need to speak up more. Just 'cause usually I'm right. Ok, no. That's not the reason. The reason is that I usually think a lot of stuff in my head, for example in projects, about stuff which needs to be done. And there is this weird way that I think everyone else realises the same stuff I do and then I just don't say anything. Then comes the moment when someone else realises what needs to be done and at that point it usually involves hurrying.

But the problem points are:

1. As I said - in some weird way I think people notices the same stuff I do. And if they dont bring it up, why should I? (Usually the things are written on a paper... that is one reason probably why I think I'm not the only one seeing it...)

2. I don't wanna step on anyone. And usually I have no idea what are the roles of everyone. So I have no clue where goes the line when to shut up and when to not (and I am the kind of person who usually then just shuts up). I have no clue which problems concerns me (in a way all of them if it involves group work. But then again no. SO... wtf!?)

3. I think too much and do too little. It's the basic problem of my whole (fucking) life. It's just the way I am.

Seriously thinking I feel like I'm not gonna go through this school either. Blah. Why is life so hard... It would be so much fun if someone would just tell me what are my likes and dislikes. Then I could at least be a little bit of a rebel and turn the whole thing upside down. Through my life there has only been one thing to fight against and that's ME! You can't expect one to grow to be a healthy person when you need to be the biggest enemy of yourself. And the biggest fan also. That's just fucked up basically. Besides it makes you feel really uncomfortable and insecure. On top of it all, I can't find myself that way. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH. I just hate life so fucking much. Seriously. Everything is just fucked up but not enough fucked up to be sad or depressed or anything for it. Just plain stupid. Everything. Pheeew...

On top of it all - I don't want to go to Vantaa for two weeks. TWO WHOLE FUCKING WEEKS! I'm so gonna kill myself. Sorry but I just... hate Christmas. Hate the thin line of being an adult and still not being able to do as I like. That's also just fucked up.

One more fucked up thing - when you're longing for something. You know. For example missing your friends or something. I don't have that. I did before fall holiday. After that I've been just so dissapointed about my whole life. Before the vacation I could keep myself in this illusion about how Vantaa is so great and blablablablaa 'I miss so much'-shit. I actually don't miss anyone from there even though I have very important people there. But I do have them spread around the country so maybe I miss so much that I can't even feel it 'cause it's spread in little pieces? ...yeah right... I'm just not the kind of person who misses anything else but myself. Would be fun not to be so fucked up with yourself! Feet on the ground and baby steps etc.

Oh well. What else to do than just live? Oh Yeah, die in the end.

Hosting with Hanna around last Christmas (check out my hair! Much hair!)

Monday gone, tuesday free!

Headphones are a great thing! Especially if you're the sound guy. Good headphones are an amazing thing! Maybe on wednesday I shall have a bit better headphones. Those I used today wasn't that nice... Buuuuuuut everything went OK. At least I think so? Even though I was SO embarrased in the first place (in a hospital) 'cause things weren't running that smoothly. It's just so stupid that we are trying to do our stuff and nobody even seems to say 'hi' to the person we are going to interview... Errrm... And then it took so long 'cause we had little bit of problems with the camera and... pfffft.... I was just so embarrased.

The next two interviews went great. From the last one we got great material for the introduction dvd. That's about all from monday! Tomorrow we will have a day off and on wednesday and on thursday we will work like hell!

[AND LUCKY FOR US, WE WERE INTERVIEWING BUNCH OF NICE AND LIVELY TEENAGERS! ...who just laughed at us. (No, I mean 'with us'. Yeaaah right!) ]

There was a giant mole in the hospital!

Sam-Sam is our cameraman dändändää

I spotted a hidden teddy!

Reporter-director-hippiepower-Heikki

Good ones, bad ones

Just 'cause it's Friday!

The good ones;

My Ruin - Have Drink on Me (AC/DC cover)

Otep - Breed (Nirvana cover)

And the awful one....s....;

Hollywood Undead - Immigrant Song (Led Zeppelin cover)

Ok, that one is not quite so bad... But...

Hollywood Undead - Shout at the Devil (Mötley Crüe cover)

That one is. In the other hand the next one is... something in between...

Brokencyde - Low (whatever)


Then again if you happen to listen to them too much they dont sound as bad.
Still crap but not as bad as it was in the first time. But then again if there's something totally awful, why listen to it... Exactly.

I feel SO old

They are beginning to die!

Celebrities which I know, I mean.

Weird.

I feel so old.

Sad.

[So old - Sold out - Soul sold out. Great morning spirit featuring a lot of motivation coffee!]

And the fact I should be going allready... errm...

I'm seeing voices...

YET AGAIN.

SEEING VOICES.

ALL DAY LONG.

Hmm. Okay. Not yet but next week when we start shooting the presentation video for Ammattistartti.

Team of three guys spiced with glamorous female touch. The outcome should be AWESOME.

(Honestly I believe it's gonna be a disaster, at least mentally for me.)

Point was; I'm the sound guy, again.

Within these four walls

Lies the secret chambers for those who never know. Anything.

Oh why is there always a chair, a chair in my kitchen? The chair I always bump into while I'm in my sweet little kitchen. What is this magic chair and why is it in my way?

The chair is there. Always there. For me to use it, stump on it and make myself high. Oh, so high.

Best reasons always are; I'm a girl, I'm short and on top of it - I'm left handed!

For a girl who doesnt usually use much make up, I sure own a lot of it. Now why is it? Well, people usually own much stuff they dont need. But I say, it would be a lot more useful to own a freezer than eye shadows you never use.

I have the best boyfriend ever (...by the way). You can see him in that picture. And in the right corner of the picture - got it? Hey, you CANT miss it. It's the skull. Yeeeep, now you got. Goood reader! I'm so proud of you. It wasnt that hard, was it. His name is Leo and he is the sexiest man alive. Seriously. Dont laugh. He is!

Dear misty Santy Claws...

I wrote to Santa Claus! Yippee! Finally I realised that I couldn't get much deeper in my head so the answer to my big, big troublemaking question, was just glowing in front of me. SOCKS. The answer was as simple as that. What do I want for Christmas? Socks. And chocolate. And hair colour. And money. And couple of cds, maybe few dvds, dancing game for my playstation 2, Moomin dvds, body lotion...
The problem is I don't have money for a stamp. HA HA HA.

You do realize that without people like me, you would not look as healthy, beautiful and oh so dumb-flat-boringly 'normal'?

Need to add to the last one...

"Levyn kakkosraidan, Guestlist, alkaessa saattavat suomalaiset höristellä korviaan, sillä kappaleen alussa kuullaan sujuvaa suomean puhuvan poken tylytystä jollekin hankalalle asiakkaalle. Bändiltä asiaa kysyttäessä he kertovat halunneen kyseisen intron tulevan suomeksi, sillä kieli kuulostaa heidän mukaansa paljon kovemmalta kuin ruotsi. "

 "The beginning of the second song, Guestlists, might make finnish people go WTF because of the finnish speaking bouncer. When you ask from the band why finnish, the answer was that finnish sounds so much more hardcore than swedish."

 (Me translating is like... well... me speaking swedish... )

http://www.imperiumi.net/index.php?act=news&id=13212

FUCK YEAH!!!

My wallet makes money (and me very happy)

I thought there was just a two euro coin but there were five euros. YIPPEE, I'm gonna get some food for the weekend. How cool is that! Like the coolest thing EVER! 


(What was I supposed to write about... Oh yeah!)

Split Your Lip - new album from Hardcore Superstar. Me likey! I listened it through once and was like errr well it's OK, the few last songs were so much better than the few from the beginning. In the middle there were something between "Dont care" and "OK".

First of all, because I was (actually still am, got hooked) listening it through Spotify and doing other stuff at the same time, I didn't realise that the weird part spoken in Finnish was actually part of a song. While the re-round I realised it. Concentration - not my strongest ability... But hey - cool! The song itself (Guestlists) goes through my ears withouth making me shiver or anything so boring. But hey - Finnish - cool! (For those of you who dont know, it's a swedish band)

As usual there are those songs which have the one part you wait for 'cause it's just SOOOO GOOOD even though it's usually just two seconds or something. You just HAVE TO listen the whole song because of it. Ofcourse. There's no point in it if you just jump to it. 

If you have a man with the voice (which makes me go nomnom) and just a guitar. And a song named "Here comes that sick bitch" it's possible that I like it.  If you have a man with the voice (which makes me go nomnom) and just a piano. And a song named "Run to your mama" it's possible I like it.


Not bad but not mindblowing album either. Waiting for the gig!


But while waiting... Going to see a lot of heavy guys ;) ...and Ari Koivunen. Err...
Next year - seriously - I want to have the adult version of the Heavy Christmas-show. As long as we have Jarkko Ahola with his leather pants I ain't complaining. But please, please, don't put Ari Koivunen on the stage after Marco Hietala. That's just playing mean! (For the audience and for the artist... errrm...)


There is still this thing called school, I think...

There IS. There really IS even though have been home all week. Feels like thursday but it's only wednesday.Another boring weekend awaits me... Lucky me I have a lot of Hunter X Hunter on cd. Anime weekend then.

But about school. I can get absolutely nothing done. I hate independent studies or what ever you call them. I can do them if I can have them all at once. At the moment I don't have any motivation left for school 'cause I just dont get the whole thing. And it takes me a lot of energy to get in that mood for doing some essay stuff so it's just plain stupid (for me) to try to do one thing on Monday, other on Tuesday. Because getting started is always the hard part. Especially when they are rather short things I need to find out.

Top of it all I'm getting really distressed because of next period. Everyone knows I don't sleep well, I never have and never probably will (unless I'm sick*) and I've already had nightmares about the 3rd period. Just when I got rid of the last nightmare-series. COOOOL....!

(*The first thing I noticed few years back when I was in a hospital, was that when I got better I didn't sleep anymore. Just wandered around the room and the hallway which was the only place I was allowed to walk. You can't believe how happy a person can be after three weeks of being just a bed patient, to be allowed to walk one stupid hallway. Oh the memories! I just LOVE my legs and I just LOVE walking. Love love love love love it! My precious little legs, always ready to carry me away from unpleasant situations. L O V E THEM! ..that's why I hate myself for being really lazy in Outokumpu, hmmph...)

CD here and CD there

Just by accident I heard in the beginning of this month that My Chemical Romance's new album is gonna be out soon. Then I was happy 'cause the NA NA NA NA-single was quite nice. Well you know - the NA NA NA NA always works, seriously... I can show you examples in the end of this post. We did a research on it with my friend. (No we wasn't drunk. Much.)
So now the album is out and 'cause I'm not the kind of fan who goes and buys the cd blindfolded, I'm listening it through Spotify. Well I'm not MCR fan anyway... But their gig was awesome few years back, that I have to admit. Though I did like more Billy Talent which was the warm up band. Back to the album. I must say I'm not gonna throw my money on it. Noooooo way dude!

I got horrified during the second song "Bulletproof heart" 'cause the chorus sounded just like an Eurovision song. Like wtf dude!?
So now I'm horribly dissapointed. The only thing that could save me is tomorrow. It's the day Hardcore Superstar's new album "Split Your Lip" is released. YIPPEEE! The peaks of it sounded so much better than the last album which I didn't like. If it's going to be as dissapointing as MCR then I'm gonna get so sad. Truly sad.

But hey, guess who's got the tickets for HCSS gig 4.2.2011 in Tavastia! Yeeehaw!


Let's go NA NA NA NA NA

Papa Roach - Kick In The Teeth 

My Chemical Romace - Na Na Na

The Beatles - Hey Jude

Ofcourse this list would be nothing without the... errrm... kind of horrible NA NA NA NA's...

Martti Vainaa & Sallitut Aineet - Pelimies

Nylon Beat - Viimeinen

And so on, so on, so on, so on...

Speak superfast so nobody understands!

We had radiostuff this week and it was quite interesting. Especially because I just can't concentrate! While I was trying to do something with the weird thing with all the weird buttons and all the weird what-was-it-things I felt myself such an idiot. Seriously. I was so confused!

First off all, when I speak I'm used to the fact that nobody listens to me. If I know that someone listens, then I start to speak so fast that nobody understands. Not that usually anything that comes out of my mouth would be very understandable... (Stupid word, is it even a word... Stupid anyway!)

It was so confusing to change your place and try to keep up with what was happening and all that kind of things - too much new things for me at the same time. So much to do and so little time and... Pheeew!

There is this thing between technology and me. And it's called an understanding problem. Technology doesn't get me and I don't get it. Usually I break everything you give me. Everything. Every single piece of technology! (Except my pacemaker but it's inside me so... But I do believe I will figure out how to destroy it too so don't worry.)

The whole techonology thing might be one of the biggest issues for me in this school. Yeeeep, like wtf am I doing here... But you know life - need to try and find yourself 'cause you can't answer yourself until you try it out!

On Thursday we were editing our interview pieces with Hanna. Hey, the clock was only half six when we left home... I wasn't prepared to be there so long so at least I can admit that in the end the working started to be not so... errm... how should I put it... sharp. Yep, that's a rather good definition for it.

But I liked the way our show was built. The construction kept it rich and living (at least from my point of view). Ofcourse there were those technical problems which you always have, especially when you're doing something the first time.

Our show was called "Aivokramppi" and the point was that our theme was a riddle for listeners to solve. All the interview pieces and music we had was related to the theme. We had such great answers from people for our interviews that I think we probably would've been in big trouble without them.

Nice package with basic problems. The week was quite fun and at least challenging enough.

Forgot the point of the last post...

So still no English!

Se syy miksi lähdin koko edellistä postausta kirjoittamaan oli tämä:

Pohdiskelin tuossa mukavan väsyneenä ja askartelusta ärtyneenä (vihaan askartelua,
ei oo yhtään meikäläisen juttu, ei niin ollenkaan. Silti on pakko aina väsätä lahjoiksi kaikkea todella hienoa ja varmasti äärimmäisen persoonallista, johon liittyy paljon roudariteippiä ja kontaktimuovia!) sellaista asiaa kuin käytöstavat.

Josta pääsin hienosti siihen, että mikäs se olikaan se sana, jota käytetään silloin, kun jollain ihmisellä ei ole käytöstapoja. Viisasti päädyin lopputulokseen "käytöstavoitteeton".
Täysin puhtaasti unohdin ne hassut sanat hyvä- ja huonokäytöksinen...

Kun pääsi yli siitä, että ei se nyt ollut se käytöstavoitteeton se sana, jota etsin, rupesin sitten miettimään, että mitäköhän tuo sana edes tarkoittaa?

Henkilö, jonka käytöksellä on jonkinlainen tavoite on selkeästikin käytöstavoitteellinen, kun taas henkilö, jonka käytöksellä ei ole minkäänlaista tavoitetta, on selkeästikin käytöstavoitteeton.

Käytöstavoitteelliseksi voisi siis määritellä mm. nuoleskelun tai vaikkapa tahallisen kohun herättämisen. Toisaalta käytöksellä on myös silloin tavoite, jos pyritään siihen, ettei herätetä kohua.

Loppupeleissä päädyin siihen, että koko sana on täysin turha, koska ei ole olemassa ihmistä, jonka käytöksellä ei olisi minkäänlaista tavoitetta. Aina on. Jopa silloin, kun ihminen on yksin. Sitä käyttäytyy kuitenkin tietyllä tavalla tiedostamattoman tai tiedostetun tavoitteen ohjaamana.

Love the language !

So no English!

Tulipa tässä mieleen, etten VIELÄKÄÄN kirjoittanut tänne niitä syysloman 'siisteimpiä' juttuja.Ensinnäkin ihan kaikista siistein juttu oli se, että Korkeasaareen syntyi lumileopardipennut ja ainoan naaraan nimeksi tuli Cia. Että siitäs saitte kaikki Anna-Hanna-Maija-akselilta nimen omistavat - meikäläisen mukaan nimetään lumileopardipentuja siinä missä te olette jokatoisen piirroshahmon nimenä. Oujee, nyt oon aika ylpee äitistä, jolta nimen olen saanut.

Äidistä pääsemmekin marmoroidulla muulin sillalla ravaten äidinkieleen! Niin siis suomeen!
Ah mikään ei piristä päivää kuin aivan loistavat uutisotsikot tahi sanasekoilut tai muuten vain rikas kielenkäyttö (en nyt tarkoita tällä herkullisia kirosanavarastoja - etenkin, kun ne nykypäivänä eivät edes ole niin herkullisia vaan samaa tylsää yhden sanan jauhamista, voivoi on siinäkin synti. Ajatelkaa miten hieno ja kirjava kirosanavarasto meillä olisi saksalaiseen DONNERWETTER-versioon verrattuna. Eivätkä edes nuoret ihmiset ole omaksuneet tätäkään taiteenlajia sen ansaitsemalla arvokkuudella! Hävetkää!)

Syyslomalla silmiini kantautui kaksi aivan erinomaista uutista!
Ensimmäinen saapui Kymmenen uutisissa ja kertoi siitä miten Suomen Puolustusvoimat ovat torjuneet tuulivoimalahankkeita. Eikös se pääasiallinen tarkoitus ollutkin puolustaa ja torjua niin ei kai tähän kohtaan voi oikeasti todeta muuta kuin, että hyvähyvä! Hienoa, että välillä kuulee Suomen Puolustusvoimistakin aiheen mukaisia uutisia.

Lehdestä bongattu otsikko löytyikin sitten yllättäen Helsingin Sanomista.
"Hautausmaan asukki viihtyy kotonaan" 
 ...tätä ei varmaan tarvitse kommentoida sen enempää?
(Mutta tiedoksi kuitenkin, että kysymys oli jonkinlaisesta työsuhdeasuntojutusta tai vastaavasta, jossa jonkun tyypin asunto ilmeisesti sijaitsi hautausmaan läheisyydessä tai jotenkin muuten kierosti sen alaisena tai jotenkin silleesti...)

RADIO SOI JA SOI JA SOI

Voisin vielä sivuta hiukan tämän viikon juttuja eli radiohommia. Eilen piti kuunnella radiota ja tehdä havaintoja ja kirjoitella jonkinlaista essee-tyyppistä ratkaisua. Tietenkin jätin tämän väliin kuin kunnon oppilas ikään samoin kuin tämän aamun IB English tunnitkin.

No, jokatapauksessa kuuntelin radiota (en vain päässyt ikinä sinne esseeseen asti) enkä tietenkään voinut vastustaa kiusausta ja oli pakko kuunnella Nappularadiota! Lasten oma radio. Sieltä tulee lastenlauluja. Pitkällisen kuuntelun tuloksena pidän hyvin epämääräisenä, että kanava, jonka pääasiallinen tarkoitus on luoda hiukan lapsiystävällisempää radiota, pistää ilmoille kappaleen, jonka lyriikoissa lauletaan seuraavan tyylistä:

"Jos en pian saa suukotella,
saatan alkaa puukotella" 

Kehtaisin väittää, että ei tarvitse enää ihmetellä minkä takia toisinaan on hienoja teinien väkivaltaisia mustasukkaisuusdraamoja liikenteessä.
Jonka lisäksi kyseisen radiokanavan jonkinasteinen maskotti, joka välillä antoi milloin mitäkin tietoiskuja siitä, että kädet pitää pestä enne ruokailua, harrasti suoranaista piilovittuilua näin marraskuun aikaan kehottaessaan muistamaan auringorasvan rannalla.

Jos en muuta oppinut sitä kanavaa kuunnellessani niin sen, että laadukasta lastenmusiikkia ei taideta edes tehdä. Suurimmassa soitossa olivat Rölli sekä Frööbelin palikat, teknoversio elefanttimarssista tuli kolme kertaa tunnin aikana, Smurffeja ei kuulunut ollenkaan ja eniten ihmettelin, kun ei näitä Suomen kansan rakastamia raskaampia lastenbändejä kuulunut ollenkaan. Olisivat kuitenkin laadulta huomattavasti parempaa kuin osa kanavan musiikista.
Toisaalta ehkä nekään eivät sitten kyseisen radiokanavan tavoitteenmukaista musiikkia ole.

Oli tai ei - minä suosittelen Jytäjyrsijöitä, Hevisaurusta sekä Moottörin Jyrinää! Kengurumeininkiäkin suosittelen, mutta vain sen takia, että se saa lapsista esiin natsimaisia piirteitä, jonka lisäksi muistelisin kyseisessä bändissä olevan silmäniloa aikuisempaan makuun.


Kengurumeiningistä tulee erittäin löyhä kamelinsilta sellaiseen tapahtumaan kuin "Maailma Kylässä", jossa muutama vuosi sitten olin katselemassa Moottörin Jyrinää, viime vuonna Kengurumeininkiä ja jossain siinä välivuosina Jytäjyrsijöitä (vai muistankohan Jytäjyrsijät väärin... Ei, kyllä Jytäjyrsijät taisivat olla sinä vuonna, kun seistiin vesilätäkössä kaverin kanssa JIPPUa kuunnellen ja VOI ETTÄ, en enää ikinä halua edes kuulla Jipusta. Niin tuskaista musiikkia ettei tosikaan!).

Joka tapauksessa, viime keväänä eli Maailma Kylässä 2010, esiintyi sellainen yhtye kuin Valravn, jonka koko keikan ajan olimme ystäväni kanssa aivan hurmiossa. Herranjestas sen laulajan ääntä ja herranjestas sitä ihmisten taidokkuutta! Sanaakaan en ymmärrä ja yleensä en sellaista musiikkia jaksa ollenkaan kuunnella. Niinpä taisi tehdä aika ison vaikutuksen.

Siispä lopetankin tämän kirjoituksen Valravnin tunnelmissa!

Valravn - Kelling

It's got nothing to do with school

But it's always the memories which will fade away.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qen_fM-cSgc

Thank you, please come again!

Happy to be crooked :)

"My kids are starting to notice I'm a little different 
from the other dads.
'Why don't you have a straight job like everyone else?' 
they asked me the other day. I told them this story:

In the forest, there was a crooked tree and a straight tree. 
Every day, the straight tree would say to the crooked tree:

'Look at me...I'm tall, and I'm straight, and I'm handsome. Look at you...you're all crooked and bent over. No one wants to look at you.'

And they grew up in that forest together.

And then one day the loggers came, and they saw the crooked tree and the straight tree, and they said:
'Just cut the straight trees and leave the rest.'
So the loggers turned all the straight trees into lumber and toothpicks and paper.

And the crooked tree is still there, growing stronger and stranger every day."
— Tom Waits

(This quote found me just at the T O T A L L Y right moment!) 

We watched a movie with Hanna. The movie was called "Wristcutters: A Love Story".
Just wanted to say that I loved the colors and the music! Yes, the story was quite interesting too but still a little bit too boring by the end of the day. The movie made me go WTF several times and that's never a bad thing. Reminded me a bit of Arizona Dream!

Oh yeah, and you just can't go wrong with Gogol Bordello! Awesome band!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A42aLAjeV1A

Oh, silly me!

Oh, silly me!
How did I not see

that the script was the paper on the floor.

Oh, and how stupid of me

to think that there might be

an actual reason to go to school.

(A reason beyond sitting and staring, I mean

Even though I admit - the floors are quite clean!)

And how foolish of me

from the south to flee

with the hopes of learning something new.

I have no idea what was the programme

used to edit that piece

and I certainly have no idea

what was the point of these past weeks?

The foolish, stupid, silly me

thinks that I must be

in a horribly wrong place

"I do have the appetite but also the wrong taste"

In my perfect world Mondays feels like Fridays

#Sing me a song 'cause I dont wanna hear my life go by

You will remember the night
You were struck by the sight of,
Ten thousand fists in the air!

# Is always laced in a familiar taste of poison

#Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine 

But there is no perfect world, just perfect days and because of the rollercoaster life we live, after Friday like Monday comes the Tuesday dressed as Sunday 

I'll carry on with the hopes and dreams inside my heart,

With the most difficult journey with us two apart,

Briefly hang my head for sorrow,

Still I shall feel no fear for tomorrow.

Just one thing I still want to ask from you,

Is it possible, could it be true,

That a child I can still be a little while longer,

even when there's no more you, my dear grandmother? 

So;

Good night, sleep tight, 

don't let the angel bed bugs bite,

Rest in peace my lovely little sweet 

Grandmother <3

This is Halloween, Halloween, Halloween...

(c) Iina Litja <3

 

 RTV10 surviving an exam and eagerly waiting for Halloween! :) 

Love you, my loud and nasty class mates!

(c) Iina Litja <3

The Most Optimistic Hand Paper Towel Ever

When I grow up, I'm gonna be a love letter!

...before...

Voi hilirimpsis heijaa miten aika rientääkään, kun on mukavaa ja syksyistä talvisin pilkahduksin. Kellojakin siirretään vasta tulevana sunnuntaina (olikohan se edes sunnuntaina...), joten on hyvää aikaa vielä hyppelehtiä lehtikasoissa ja nauttia SYKSYSTÄ. Ja koska liitelemme vielä syksyssä, kerrottakoon mitä tapahtui ENNEN syyslomaa!

Itseasiassa eipä tässä ole sen ihmeempiä ollutkaan kuin sen käsikirjoitustyön palautus. Ei sitten sekään jäänyt niinkään viime tippaan kuin palautuspäivän aamuun ja ruokataukoon (eikä varmasti sitä huomannut lopputuloksesta - ehei...). Kirjoittamisen kanssa nyt vaan on hiukan ongelmallista se aloittaminen... No jokatapauksessa tehtävä tuli palautettua ajoissa ja vaikka siinä ei nyt varsinaisesti ollut kirjoitettu yhtä kohtausta vaan yksi sivu niin kai se oli ihan riittävä. Eipä voi tietää, mutta henkilökohtaisesti pidin siitä mitä kirjoitin ja voisin kirjoittaa sen oikeastaan loppuunkin, kun kyseessä oli vain parin sivun juttu joka tapauksessa. Ei mitään maailmaa mullistavaa kuitenkaan, mutta pidin tekstin mahdollisuuksista. (AH HAH HAH)

IB English! Sekin alkoi sitten. Vähän tylsähköä, mutta ei ole niin tylsä opettaja kuin oletin, että olisi. Vaikka olisikin tehnyt heti ensimmäisellä tunnilla alkaa vääntää kättä erinäisistä asioista liittyen... hmm... "opetustyyliin", Voi että kun en voi sille mitään, että kiinnitän huomion sellaisiin asioihin, joihin kukaan muu ei kiinnitä, mutta jotka loppupeleissä voivat olla hyvinkin tärkeitä jollekulle. Anteeksi nyt vain siitäKIN. En kuitenkaan koe sitä huonoksi tavaksi, koska osaan tarvittaessa olla mainitsematta asioista. Mutta IB English on muuten ihan perustylsää settiä enkä usko, että sen kanssa tulee mitään liian suuria ongelmia ellen ala vaatimaan itseltäni liikoja. Toivottavasti en.


Viikolla 40 meillä oli tuotannonhallintaa. Olin aivan vakuuttunut, että aihe olisi elämääkin tylsempää, mutta itseasiassa viikko meni yllättävän nopeasti! En nyt oikein osaa muotoilla sanoiksi mitä päällimmäisenä jäi käteen (paitsi järkyttävä naurukohtaus) - kokonaisuutta avaavia palasia joka tapauksessa. Käsikirjoituksen purkaminen oli kyllä hauskaa puuhaa! Etenkin, kun sain olla ohjaajan roolissa ja yrittää mankua tulikärpäsiä ja linnoja erinäisiin kohtauksiin. Vaan sittenpä minut ympäripuhuttiin (tai siis itse tajusin, että paljon paremminhan se sopii suomalaiseen kokonaisuuteen, että ollaan koivujen alla ulkona aamiaisella kuin jossain linnassa). Oli siis vallan sulavakielisiä tyyppejä meidän tuotantoryhmässä, minua ei ole helppo huijata saati ympäripuhua! Ehei!
Pitipä sitä seikkailla erinäisillä sivuilla ja tutkia elokuvan rahoitukseen liittyviä asioita. Siinä sitten Suomen Elokuvasäätiön tukipäätöksiä tutkaillessani sain juurikin sen aikaisemmin mainitsemani hillittömän naurukohtauksen. Dokumenttielokuvan käsikirjoitustukea oli myönnetty....

"Tunnusta väriä - Elokuva suomalaisista jalkapallokannattajista ja kannatuskulttuurista."

Allekirjoittaneella oli sitten hillittömän hauskaa.

Viikolla 41 oli kirjallista viestintää, jonka sain hyväksiluettua. Ainakin ilmeisesti, koska ensimmäistäkään tehtävää en tehnyt eikä tullut kyllä viestiäkään, että niitä kukaan kaipaisi eli kai se meni sitten niillä todistuksilla, jotka toimitin.

Käännösintoa odotellessa ja syyslomatarinoita haudutellessa HILIRIMPSIS!

Ylimielistä hihittelyä ja muita tarinoita vkosta 39 // Arrogant giggling and other stories from the week 39

(EI OLE PITKÄ OTSIKKO. HILJAA SIINÄ! OLEN YKSINKERTAISUUKSIEN KESKITTYMÄ, varsinkin sanallisesti... Lyhyt ja ytimekäs on tyylini.)

Kyllä oli erittäin hieno viikko. Oli valaisua ja videokuvailua rinnakkain. Siinä sivussa vähän Joensuun matkailua, perussettiä hermojen menetyksen ja koulusta poisolemisen kanssa. Ja se tentti, josta en ollut huolissani - ennen kuin sain kokeen nokkani eteen. 

Maanantaina tosiaan vierähti päivä Manhattan short film festivalin parissa, josta mainitsinkin jo pitkähkösti aiemmin siispä ei siitä sen enempää. Tiistaina piti kuvata kohtaus Kauniista ja rohkeista. Voi ryhmätyön ihanuus ja autuus! Kaikki meidän ryhmäläiset tuntuivat olevan enemmän tai vähemmän pihalla, joka nyt sinänsä ei ollut yllätys. Itsehän en niinkään innokkaasti ensimmäisenä ollut huutamassa oikein mitään roolia itselleni, joten jäin sitten paperin ja kynän kanssa listaamaan kuvattuja kohtauksia ja ottoja. Enkä kyllä valita. Olihan se mukava istua tuolilla ja niin sanotusti hihitellä partaansa, kun kaikki huutavat toistensa päälle (varmasti olin siellä itsekin jossain vaiheessa hyppimässä jonkun varpaille) eikä homma näytä sujuvan mihinkään suuntaan. Kukaan tiedä mistään mitään ja sitä rataa. Siksi se varmaan olikin niin hauskaa, koska henkilökohtaisesti olin hyvinkin kartalla siitä mitä olisi pitänyt tehdä. Voi johtua siitä, että allekirjoittaneella on paha tapa yrittää kuunnella ohjeistusta ja mm. sitä mitä opettajalla on sanottavanaan.

Henkilökohtaisesti ärsyttää, ettei ihmiset melkein koskaan tunnu olevan kartalla mistään. Sillä kun on vähän vaikutusta ryhmätöihin ja niiden onnistumiseen sekä edistymiseen, etenkin jos pitää kerrata kaikki mitä juuri on sanottu. Mutta nojaa, tekemällä oppii niin hyvä, että on sentään innokkaita tekijöitä. Kyllä se kuitenkin ärsyttää enemmän, jos on ihmisiä, jotka suoraan sanovat "en tee" kuin jos on ihmisiä, jotka tekevät, mutta ovat pihalla. 

On kyllä ollut äärettömän opettavaisia nämä muutamat viikot ja muutamat hassut ryhmätyöt, jotka on tehty. Itsestäni olen oppinut sen, että meikäläisen kommunikaatiotaidot on huomattavasti huonommat kuin olinkaan kuvitellut. En tiedä johtuuko yleinen ärsytys nyt vain tästä elämäntilanteesta, vaikka yleensä uusiin paikkoihin sopeutuminen ei ole ollut hirveän vaikeaa. Tietenkin kaaosmainen ympäristö ei auta sopeutumiseen. Hmm. En tiedä. Tästä viikosta osaan sanoa sen, että on ollut keskiviikkona niin huono päivä (eikä varmasti jäänyt huomaamatta ihmisiltä), että se on kyllä suoraan vaikuttanut käyttäytymiseen. Anteeksi siitä (mutta toisaalta olen huomannut, että ainakin vaikuttaa siltä, että ihmiset hyvin ymmärtää toistensa huonot päivät, tavallaan...) 

Mutta positiivisesti ajateltuna ainakin miulla ja Annilla tuntuu sujuvan aika hyvin yhteen tuo työskentely. (Tietenkin nyt, kun kirjoitan noin niin kohta ollaankin toistemme kurkuissa kiinni... tosin Anni on niin pitkä, etten mä yletä sen kurkkuun ilman jakkaraa... hmm... eli ei ehkä huolta!) Ja meillä on tosi hyviä ideoita kehitteillä ;)

 

Koe oli mielenkiintoinen. Olin nimittäin pois sen päivän, jolloin käytiin kameratyön perusteet niin meni hiukan soveltamiseksi. Onneksi olen äärimmäisen luova ihminen ja kohtalainen kuuntelija, muistikin melkein pelaa, niin muistin suurimman osan asioista siitä kameran pikakäyttöopastuksesta, jonka sain aikaisemmin valaisuviikon puitteissa.

Keskiviikkona oli ihan perusvalaisujuttuja ja tietenkin Film Presentation!

Tällä kertaa meitä kidutettiin sellaisella elokuvalla kuin "Sauna". Suomalaiseksi elokuvaksi kyseinen teos oli melekoisen hieno, vaikka en siitä nyt oikein välittänyt. Jäi jotenkin taas vaihteeksi ihan hämärän peittoon koko idea (en vain osaa / jaksa keskittyä...) ja jostain syystä puolet elokuvan repliikeistä meni ohi. Siitä olin onnellinen, että yksi järkyttävän rasittava hahmo kuoli. Muuten tulikin lähinnä mieleen Pandan lakumönjä-mainokset. 

Terveydellisistä syistä keskiviikko olikin täysin syvältä. Tuntui, että turpaan tulee tasaisesti pitkin päivää, joten iltaa kohden sitä olikin melko väsynyt ja kylmissään. Senpä takia jäin torstaina kotiin potemaan henkistä oksennustautia enkä liittynyt luokkalaisteni seuraan Viscultin parissa. Ohjelmassa oli siis dokumenttien katselua Joensuussa. Mutta Viscult lähettää samanaikaisesti dokumentit ja puheet internetissä, joten katselin niitä sitten kotona. Jaksoinkin keskittyä ensimmäisen teoksen (The Man from Kongo river) ajan. Toisena oli ranskalainen dokumentti, jonka aikana kirjaimellisesti nuokuin koneen ääressä, joten katsoin parhaimmaksi mennä päiväunille...

Positiivisesti ajateltuna oli kyllä hienoa, kun olo oli kuin Jigsawlla vallan siinä katsellessani luokkalaisteni kiinnostuneita ilmeitä tietokoneeni ruudulta...

Ensimmäisestä dokumentista jäi mieleen... Nojaa. Olikohan se nyt niin kamalan hirveän uutta ja järkyttävää,että ihmisistä saa aika helposti hirviöitä tunkemalla ne jonnekin tietynlaiseen ympäristöön? Hohhoijaa. Muutenkaan aihe ei oikein kiinnostanut, mutta jostain syystä dokumentin jaksoi katsoa. Keskittyminen sitten on eri asia. Njeäääääh....    

Tulin muuten siihen lopputulokseen, että ehdottomasti suurin syy siihen minkä takia elämä on miut tänne Outokumpuun ja tänne kouluun heittänyt, on se, että oppisin pitkäjänteisyyttä. Se on nimittäin yksi asia, joka on aivan selkeä kehittämisen kohde. On jotenkin mahdotonta istua paikallaan ja tehdä asiat pitkäjänteisesti, mutta eipä sitä juosten kustu materiaali ole yleensä oikein houkuttelevaa. Että jos edellisessä koulussa opin todella paljon sosiaalisista taidoista ja kehitin itsetuntoa ja itsetuntemustaitojani niin nyt kyllä pääpointti taitaa olla siellä kommunikaatiotaidoissa ja pitkäjänteisyydessä. Sosiaaliset taidot nyt tulee kaupan päälle - toivottavasti. 

Ja jos joku oikeasti ihmettelee miksi kirjoitan niin tylsiä ja pitkiä sepustuksia niin yritän tässä samalla pitää yhteyttä alkuperäispäähäni eli pääkaupunkiseudulle. Jonka lisäksi kirjoittelen omaksi huvikseni tätä nyt sitten molemmilla kielillä (niin kauan kuin jaksan hah haa), koska tuleepahan kehitettyä omaa kirjallista ilmaisuaan molemmin päin. Eikä Outokummussa ole mitään tekemistä... (Olen aktiivinen nuori ihminen...)

Arrogant giggling and other stories from the week 39

(No, the title is not long. You are imagining it. It's as simple as everything in me. Speacially my writings... Short and... short...)

 

Oh what a week! We had lighting and camera work side by side. We also went to Joensuu, I lost my nerves on wednesday and didn't go to school on thrusday. And we had the exam I wasnt worried about - until I got it under my nose.

Monday was the day we were enjoying the Manhattan short film festival as I told you before. On tuesday we filmed a scene from the Bold and the beautiful. It was really fun! Our group seemed not to have a clue about what we were supposed to do which was not a surprise. I wasn't eagerly yelling any role for myself 'cause I'm eager to try anything ('cause I'm interested in a little bit of everything). So my role was just to be with a pen and a paper and write down which scene was filmed and so on. And it was a really nice job to do! It was so nice to just sit on a chair and

giggle deep in your head while watching everyone speaking at the same time and everybody tryin to direct. (yesyes I was probably also there at first too) It didn't get the work anywhere.  The reason it was so funny for me was 'cause I actually had an idea what we were supposed to do. Might be because I have this really bad habit of listening what the teacher has to say.

Personally it really bugs me that people doesn't seem to have a clue about what was the assigment. And it has an affect in the work - how it will succeed and so on. Especially if you need to repeat everything that has been said about a minute ago. But oh well, at least this time there was nobody saying "I'm not doing that". It's much more annoying that way than if people just don't know what to do.

I've learnt so much from the team works we've done allready. From myself I've learnt that I really have just bad, bad, BAD communication skills. Much worse than I've imagined. Usually it has not been difficult for me to feel myself at home in a new place but now I think all my problems might have something to do with the changes in my life. The kind of chaotic enviroment doesn't help. But oh I don't know... About this week I can only say that wednesday was really hard from me and I'm sure my classmates did notice it. I'm sorry about my behaviour (but I've come to realize that our class does understand others bad days... in a way anyway...)

  

If I'm trying to find a postivie aspect now, it is the fact that me and Anni can work pretty damn well together (of course now 'cause I write this, we shall be fighting from now on.) And we have such a great ideas!

The exam was interestin. I wasn't at school the day we learnt the basics of camera work. So I needed to be a little bit creative. Luckily it's not a problem for me and I'm a desent listener, my memory does work also, so I remembered most of what I learnt about the camera stuff before.

 

On wednesday we had some basic lighting stuff and ofcourse Film Presentation! This time we were tortured with this finnish movie called "Sauna". For a finnish one it was quite nice even though it wasn't for me. I obviously just don't know how to concentrate 'cause again I didn't get the basic idea and I got no clue why half of the speaking was just gibberish for me. I was so happy when this really irritating character died! Mostly the movie reminded me of this Panda candy which is basicly liquorice goo...

Wednesday sucked because of my health. During the day I felt like being hit over and over again so by the end of the day I was really tired and cold. That's why I didn't go to school on thursday. We were going to Joensuu to Viscult festival to watch documentary films. But luckily they send it on the web also so I tried to watch the films at home. The first one - Man from Congo river - I did watch but the second was... well... I almost fell asleep by my computer so I went to take a nap...

But hey - it was really positive to feel like Jigsaw while watching my class mates (who btw looked really interested...) from my screen.

So what did I got from the first documentary film... well... Basicly I was just irritated 'cause there's nothing new about people turning into monsters in a spesific enviroment. The subject wasn't interesting anyway for me but at least I didn't fall asleep.

I came to the conclusion that definetily the biggest reason life threw me to Outokumpu and to the school I'm in, is that I need to learn persistence. I just can't sit down and do the same thing over and over and over again but then again you can't get good material in a hurry. So if in my last school I learnt a lot about social skills and about knowing myself and ofcourse I learnt to appreciate myself in a whole new way, now the main thing is communicating and persistence. Social skills will hopefully improve too.   

And if someone is wondering why I write so long and boring stuff, it's just because I'm trying to spread the enjoy of my staying in Outokumpu to my home place Vantaa. And I'm trying to improve my writing skills in both languages also. Besides it's not that I have anything better to do here in Outokumpu....

Manhattan short film festival

Olipas oikein mukava ja perjantaifiiliksinen päivä tuo maanantai. Itsehän aloitin aamun kevyesti verikokeilla ja juurihoidolla, joten oli ihan kiva, ettei ohjelmassa ollut ainakaan mitään ryhmätyöhenkeä vaativaa.


Kotona ollessani ehdin vilkaista nopeasti Manhattan short film festivaalin finalistitöiden lyhyet kuvaukset internetin ihmeellisestä maailmasta (Itse asiassa täältä). Mielenkiintoista oli se, että juuri ne teokset, jotka vaikuttivat mielestäni mielenkiintoisilta myös olivat henkilökohtaisesti mielestäni parhaimmistoa.


Mutta ehdottomasti neljä lempparia olivat:


Party (Croatia): Pidin tarinasta ja siitä miten homma oli rakennettu. Ehdottomasti nautin suuresti siitä miten paljon katsojan mielikuvitukselle jätettiin varaa. Sitä paitsi siinä oli mummeli! Näin jälkeenpäin ajateltuna olisin ehkä kuitenkin halunnut antaa ääneni tälle teokselle, mutta oli ja meni.

Take a chill pill?

12 years (Saksa): Lyhyen ytimekäs ja piristävän erilainen muihin verrattuna. Eikä myöskään yhtä raskas kuin useimmat muista teoksista. Olisin ehkä henkilökohtaisesti halunnut hieman erikoisempaa dialogia, koska nyt sain sellaisen kuvan, ettei dialogiin oltu varsinaisesti kiinnitetty huomiota. Tai sitten sillä yritettiin saada vielä enemmän hauskuutta irti. Tai ehkä se oli katsojan kannalta helpointa, kun konsepti oli kuitenkin olevinaan outo (minun mielestänihän puhuvissa koirissa ei ole mitään outoa, eikös niitä ole puettu jo iät ja ajat ja sitä rataa). Tiedä häntä.


A Little Inconvenience (Kanada): Teos, jolle se ääni sitten meni. Oli myös yksi niistä tavallaan kevyemmistä teoksista ja aivan loistavasti toteutettu. Vaikka pidin lopusta, olisin silti toivonut, ettei kyse olisikaan ollut siitä mistä oli. Sain hieman toisen käsityksen ja olisin pitänyt sitä huomattavasti enemmän. Varmaan syystä, että nyt teoksen teema oli jotenkin melko arkipäiväinen. Hmm, no jotain sinnepäin - en osaa selittää kunnolla.


Kuinka moni muu muuten huomasi, että äijän työpöydän maljakossa lillui kuollut kultakala?


Push Bike (Australia): Mitäs tästä nyt voi sitten sanoa? Aivan loistavasti rakennettu lyhyt kuvaus siitä miten ihmiset saattavat hyvinkin huomaamattaan vajota tietynlaiseen rutiininomaiseen elämään ja menettävät nuoruutensa innokkuuden ja seikkailunhalun. YKsinkertaisesti hieno teos, mutta koska aihe ei varsinaisesti kiinnostanut/koskettanut yhtä paljon kuin esim Kroatian tai Kanadan niin ei sitten tullut äänestettyä tätä. Osaan kyllä hyvin kuvitella tämän teoksen iskevän moniin päähenkilön kanssa samanlaisessa elämäntilanteessa oleviin naisiin. (tai sitten ei?)


Oli siellä sitten muutama hienohko teos, jotka eivät aivan top-listalleni yltäneet, mutta olivat silti toki hyviä. Nimittäin;


The Pool (Irlanti): Tämä tuntui siltä kuin olisi pohjannut johonkin vanhaan kansantaruun tai tarinaan, jota kerrotaan jossain koulussa / leirikeskuksessa tai muualla. Hienosti tehty, mutta itse tarinassa oli jotain mikä ei napannut. Jostain syystä - en tiedä mistä - en oikein päässyt sisälle koko hommaan. Saattaa olla, että hommassa oli tavallaan liian paljon asioita lyhyeeseen aikaan sisällytettynä. Tai ehkä hahmot olivat liian pinnallisia tai niitä oli tavallaan liikaa. Voi tietenkin myös olla, etten vain osannut samaistua yhteenkään hahmoon millään tasolla.


War (Italy): Oli hauska ja kevyt teos, vaikka aihe ei välttämättä ollutkaan kaikista kevyin omalla tavallaan. Hienoa (tai ehkä enemmäkin hauskaa) oli miten kyllä puski läpi italialaisuus tässä teoksessa. Loppupeleissä kuitenkaan aihe ei jaksanut kiinnostaa enkä oikein ymmärrä mitään mihinkään sotiin liittyviä juttuja niin suurin osa keskustelusta ja varsinaisesta konfliktista oli minulle hiukan hepreaa.


Sitten on tietenkin ne teokset, jotka eivät jääneet melkein edes mieleen.


Echo (Puola): Toisella tavalla rakennettuna olisi toiminut. Nyt ei jäänyt käteen oikein mitään eikä teoksessa ollut varsinaisesti jännitystä (ainakaan en itse kokenut näin). Suoraviivainen kerronta (vai mikäköhän olisi nyt joku tosi oikea sana siihenkään. Tarkoitan kuitenkin, että kaikki tapahtui peräjälkeen eikä asioita oltu kerrottu mitenkään limittäinlomittain tai silleesti...) ei oikein sopinut tähän teokseen juurikin siitä syystä, että jännitys ja kaikki jäi hyvin laimeaksi. Etenkin loppukohtaus olisi voinut olla oikein ahdistava ja huomattavasti vähemmän huonolla tavalla hämmentävä (ottaen huomioon, että aika moni luokkalaisemme oli teoksen loputtua vähän kysymysmerkkinä eikä 'hyvänä' sellaisena).


Madagascar (Ranska): Omistan muutenkin henkilökohtaisen ongelman Ranskan kanssa. Aivan järkyttävä ennakkoluulo ja stereotypia tekotaiteellisesta, itseään muita parempana pitävästä maasta. Eikä tämä teos nyt oikein auttanut asiaa. En saanut mitään irti teoksesta - osaksi syystä, että on nuo ranskankielen taidot vähän ruosteessa (odotas - enhän mä osaa sanaakaan ranskaa!?) eikä teoksessa ollut englanninkielisiä tekstityksiä. Viisaimmat varmaan pääsivät sisälle siihen mistä oli kysymys, itse en muista muuta kuin päänsäryn aiheuttavan tyylin liittyen animointiin ja piirrustuksiin. Muistan myös, että siinä heilui välillä sellainen söpö eläin, jolla on raidallinen häntä. En nyt tiedä mikä sen nimi on, mutta se oli söpö. Eli meni ohi ja lujaa kovaa.


Underground (Meksiko): Jostain syystä tähän en päässyt ollenkaan sisälle, jolloin koko homma jäi latteaksi eikä koskettanut millään tavalla. Lähinnä vain nauratti vaikka aiheessa ei kyllä ollut mitään naurettavaa. Päähahmot eivät ehtineet tulla tarpeeksi tutuiksi tai avautua millään tavalla, jotta heidän tarinansa olisi koskettanut allekirjoittanutta millään tavalla. Hieno hahmo oli kyllä joku paha maanomistaja tai vastaava - se jäi mieleen. Ainiin ja tietenkin äärettömän laimea 'sankarimainen' lopetus. Sai siinä vähän naurua pidätellä...


Watching (UK): En ymmärtänyt. Tavallaan hieno, mutta tavallaan liian vaikea meikäläisen aivoille. Äääh... Oikeasti. En osaa sanoa mitään!? Apua! Sinänsä hiukan mitään sanomaton, mutta toisaalta aika hyvin tehty ja rakennettu. Jokin vain jäi jotenkin selviämättä pienissä aivoissani. 

Manhattan short film festival

Oh monday was such a nice day and felt like friday! Personally I started my morning in the dentist and by being a lab rat.


When I was at home I had the time to check out the short descriptions of the finalists. (From here) The most exciting part was that the ones I found interesting were actually the ones that really were the best ones.


And my favorite ones were:


Party (Croatia):  I liked the story and how the whole thing was build. I definitely enjoyed how much was left for the viewer to decide. And it had a granny! Afterwards I thought that I should've given my vote for this one.

12 years (Germany):  Short and refreshing compared to others. Not as heavy as most of the others. I would've wanted a little bit more bizarre dialog 'cause now I got the picture that there was no work put in to that. Maybe the talking dogs are so weird (as if...) that it would shock too much if even the dialog wasn't that secure. Or then they tried to use the thousand times heard dialog to bring more amusement. I don't know.


A Little Inconvenience (Canada):  The one I voted. Was also one of the light ones - kind of. Loved the way it was build. But even though I liked the end, I wished that it were different. I got a little bit different picture and liked it more. Probably 'cause the theme was too "every day life". Oh well, don't know how to explain it better.


By the way, did you see the dead gold fish in the bowl?

Push Bike (Australia):What on earth can I say about this one? Greatly build story about how people - without even noticing it - slowly fall in to this life full of routines and loose their eagerness they once had in their youth. Simply a fine piece but didn't vote for it because the subject wasn't that interesting as Croatia's or Canada's. It's not hard to believe this probably will touch those women who are in the same kind of situation as the main character.


Then there was few nice pieces which I liked but they didn't get to my TOP-list.


The Pool (Ireland):  This one felt like it was based on a folklore or a ghost story told in school or a camp site. Great work but there was something that just wasn't there. For some reason - I don't know why - I didn't get inside this one. Maybe the characters were too shallow or there was too many of them. Ofcourse it might just be that I didn't know how to identify to the charachters.

Take a chill pill?

War (Italy): Fun and light piece even though the subject wasn't that light. It was really nice (or mostly funny) how you really knew you were watching a piece made in Italy. But the subject wasn't interesting for me and I really have no idea about any wars so most of the conflict and dialog was hebrew to me.

And ofcourse there was those which I can't remember...


Echo (Puola):  Wasn't exciting 'cause it was build 'wrong'. I didn't get anything out of it 'cause of that. The way it was told - in a straight lined way - just didn't work. It was lame! Speacially the ending scene. It could've been really emotional etc but now it was just... dumb? Our class was mostly question marks and not in a good way.


Madagascar (Ranska):  I admit it - I have a personal problem with France. I have really strong stereotype about the country and this didn't help it. I didn't get anything out of this one 'cause there were no subtitles and the dialog was in French. The most wise ones probably got the idea but I didn't. I remember only the headache I almost got from the way it was animated and drew. I also remember that once and a while there was this really cute animal. So... didn't get anything out of this one.

Underground (Meksiko):  I didn't get inside this story or the characters so it did nothing for me emotionally. I was mostly laughing even though the subject wasn't laughable. The characters didn't open up to me and that's why there was nothing for me in this one. There was this bad ass land owner who was a good character. Liked it. But the ending was TERRIBLE. I was going to die of laughter.

Watching (UK): I didn't get it? In a way it was great but then I just didn't have the brains to figure it out. Seriously, there's nothing to say? It was well made and build but still something was missing.